Rafa, the wanderer

.....this has been the most confusing year ever...


like, up until now, i have always thought i had time. i had time to really think about my career, to really prepare myself for my future.

but now, its getting too real, too close. like, i have to choose what i want to do with the rest of my life by YESTERDAY, i have to apply to every school possible and see what is required for me to enter.

its like, i was just fine a few months ago. i wasn't perfect, but i was better.
suddenly i cant stop worrying

i cant stop freaking out about everything

i cant stop dwelling on sad stuff

ultimately, i cant stop.

at least there used to be huge time gaps between the times i have freaked out like this. but now this is a constant day-to-day battle.

who is this person and where did he come from?


i need to see my spiritual shrink, or whatever you call it. i need some sort of guidance


-rafa